Failure:

Uf every time i think its enough but there is still more to come, With every failure i think I am Done but then realize learning isn’t. Every failure made me stronger and more determined of my destiny. It has been long chasing others dream now its time to see 1.This is life and its reality of emerging as a lone winner. A struggle for existence, survival -it doesn’t mean that we don’t exist but making an impression is more important. We as an individual are stuck in our own pre-requisites constrain and frame of thoughts. Its high time I buckle up my laces and get focused. Days that are passing by and as I look back to see my efforts I realize hadn’t put any, may be have tried by not to the fullest before its too late or I am left to cry upon what I made my life need to get back to work. It is always a difficult thing to stand up give all the eze and comforts and do the work ie, specifically hard work. For me past 2 years have really been different , different in a way that u would have least expected things to happen and shape up and at least when u never expected them to happen in adversity . Nightmare is even less tragic but all happens for a cause. Failure is a mere virtue not a permanent entity.
I came across a line from a Pakistani writer “I am resilient, I am winner, I have what it takes” and tried reflecting its real deed word were very strong and motive more stronger. Then was reminded about the bird phoenix which rises from its own ashes and is reborn to complete its destiny.

In solidarity with Anna

I am resilient, I am winner, I have what it takes
There are certain things you don’t feel often, the feel of 1st breath when you are under water the feel of victory when you waited for a long time but this 1 was impeccable extra ordinary and exquisite .The feeling of importance feeling of pride, joy anger and anguish. Yes I felt them all, all at a time. We do claim to be patriot when it comes to 15th august or 26th January but hardly figure out the difference among the two dates and their significance 26th January is the most important date coz it is this day we were proclaimed a democratic and had been awarded rights and benefits which we hardly care of. In totality we are liberal when it comes to claiming and questioning authority about our rights.
I was at ground zero of India Against Corruption movement yes jantar mantar (india’s Tahir Square) I had been to this place earlier but this time around the entire ambience was electrifying. The man behind this noble cause Anna himself sitting graciously and with the aroma and sparkle around him would never let you feel that the man has been of fast from past 80 odd hours. People chanting slogans and singing patriotic songs felt amazing. Was there for about 2 hours and was spell bound by the momentum and energy around. I had to fight for a place to even have glimpse of Anna Himself. Anna a selfless and a true patriot from heart. Was this his own cause no the man is 76 years old and has always fought for the cause of nation 1st in 1965 then reforming a poor village and making it one of the richest and self sufficient in terms of energy. There I saw an old man bare foot dressed in clumsy cloths but the sparkle that I saw in his eyes was beyond word coz he knew what he was destined for hade slogan that said all. Now next time when we pass by some of the governments ill faced work let us remember that its we who have paid and it is they who are accountable. Just take steps may be small may be subtle but these small and insignificant work in together will make the difference.
Do check the pics and feel the same
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Apotheosis extended….

College life is the best part of my life or rather every 1’s life and it becomes more interesting when things are in order and right as u wanted it to be. The last leg of 2nd year saw transition as I shifted back to campus hostel Reasons being Differences which I hate talking about but when I ponder guess I should have ignored few things but particularly I admire this particular decision of mine which ultimately changed plenty of things for me. The summers of 2007 brought seasons of so called summer trainings. 1st for me was training at BSNL typical government worker attitude so guess every 1 was aware of the circumstances 30 days certificate with only 2 days visit to the office amazing. Well the story wasn’t the same for next half of my vacation coz have paid for getting f***** sorry for being vulgar. I enrolled a course at IIT Kharagpur for Network Management 10k for 25 days but the experience I gained there is priceless. We were trained by greats of cse and It departments people like Rajib Mal, Apupam basu, ID sen just immaculate. Classes from 9-5 each day state of art IIT campus labs and hostels. Later labs for about 6 hours on various stuffs believe me its been abt 4 years but am still familiar with the stuff. So courtesy IIT I reached college 5 days pre class commencement and yes I felt as if I was doomed coz half of the college was still at home and the other half was battling with their back papers but as its said every problem brings an opportunity those days made me an internet addict which I am totally proud of. Finally its june 2007 and yes its 3rd year for which all the buzz is 1 can see this coming coz if pre 3rd year is so hectic post 1 is even more frantic. Classes were up and yes I was lazy as usual but this time air smelled different any guesses………BOSS we were in pre final year and with circumstances in our college played vital role as final year students, organizing events and managing things. Yes I was happy
With this mixed feelings 1 month passed an announcement was made Open Source Giants Sun Microsystems(Now a part of Oracle corp) were looking for Campus ambassadors tough 1 yes indeed all I got to understand it was an opportunity for an internship but had to compete with the bests in the college. Finally the day came about 80 odd people were interviewed and 8 were selected 3 of us were friends. Does it feel good no it doesn’t at least not for me fighting with friends for a place it sucks man. Top of that I was the 1 who was interviewed 1st super doomed, it was a telephonic conversation which lasted about 50 mins and I felt it was good. Still remember the questions coz I have a bad memory but a question would remember for ever was Why me justifiable 1 coz I ended up 5th according to my result out of 8. Next 3 days the interviews were over and fingers were crossed and I lost hope and was busy with nothing possibly a week later the results were out and yes I made through and had to supervise sounds really fun but the truth is vice versa. Well would come to that later I was invited over to Bangalore for induction program it was fun. This brought opportunity to meet some real geeks who even turned off their system using command prompt and were obsessed with technology. 7 days tour ended leaving me with some life long memory to cherish and immense responsibility for next year. Was back to college and schedule could not be tighter that this but I was paid for that. Meanwhile our 2nd year project was selected and we were acclaimed internationally believe me I was on cloud 9.
Time flied and everything I did turned out well, March saw me getting prize at different colleges and organized an event Doyen and Dame loved it it was rodies of our college we bullied every participant and people who got through walked on Ramp loved the concept and thanx Ashu for the idea. Courtesy event got some good friends. Gajajyoti our annual fest saw us anchoring but I never liked the role as was missing the groove but this time I sat with few friends and enjoyed the event with friends and food. I know I had made some friends some enemy and when you are popular to have to pay the price but whatever it is loved it and will always.

Let's Un-Complicate

Hi again, well writing frequently for a simple man like me is pretty difficult coz we ain’t got enough happening in our monotonous lives. In recent times I have tried to be frequent (I know a friend of mine won’t agree) but in lieu of my past record 2nd blog in 20 days isn’t bad at all. The most complex part of writing about naïve as me is deciding what to write. U would never like to write about bosses u hate and colleague you hardly care about, movies which are topics that you are tired talking of and just oblige to keep off boredom. So particularly I thought of writing about my experience, write about certain mistakes.
Let’s Un-complicate
Finally after being puzzled for about 10 days on what to write and what not, fortunately an advertisement’s tag line got stuck in my mind so decided to clear it up.
Let’s un-complicate
How can I miss an amazing week around the corner this time? Full 7 days dedicated to love friendship and relationship. But guys I don’t see cupids flying around inspiring love and casting its magic spell. I really don’t find much of a difference & believe me I never had. Truth might be bitter that I never have been much into or rather was never responded the way I wanted the things to be. For some this particular time of year brings personified love. But fellas we really don’t need just 1 day to make some1 feel special go out loud and tell them this every single day.
I never understood this if I had would have been writing this blog. What I feel the biggest problem is that we don’t conspire things & by the time we tend to feel some1 special’s importance the battle is already lost.
Let’s un-complicate all the process that goes in, feel free and be ready to get in groove. People hit by this bug act differently, for some it’s just a transition phase till they find another girl while for few it’s a prolonged suffering. I certainly come in the third category where they are not at all sure about the current state. But whatever it is feels amazing as u no longer any reason to remember it becomes part of life.
I am not sure whether any 1 would be reading this or understand it but avoid getting in any of the above categories. Let’s un-complicate and tell whom so ever we miss, let’s start a fresh. Well I will be wishing my dearest pals and missing a few.
And until we meet again ………………….

“I miss being me”

As I move down towards East it feels like cold is gripping its way up to my spine, Laying low on my berth I ponder about the year that is just about to pass by. Opportunist take it as minimum 365 different occasion to come up to something new however for me life was simply monotones , Slow and sluggish.
Life in a metropolis is hectic day in and day out u see people chasing buses, cabs and metros as if it’s the most formidable part of their life. Have seen people who struggle for surviving now I thoroughly understand Darwin’s word “Survival of the fittest. We people from small cities enjoy the luxury of space time and are free from any paradox of people from metropolises. The best thing is our cultural values are still intact. Living for around a year in such place running to save minutes and get to the office to rite time is what I have done. Preposterous is what I use to tell others but strange now I am one among them. Last leg of my life penned few failures which am totally in a habit of digesting because I knew all the reasons behind it and for the 1st time didn’t blame any 1 for it. Met few people who were good and few who would like to completely wipe of my memories. There were instances where the air around seemed to be heavier and felt if I was choking for a good breath. I really hate people who try to manipulate the way u live life, Dude u got to understand every individual has an intellect and logic to do things.
I really miss being me Being stubborn, being a tough nut to crack. when I look back and see what I have done or the way I have lived life in past I surely miss being me. . I miss the energy I channeled into my work or literally any thing I did. All I needed just a small gesture or desire from friends. I miss that picnic those rumble on beach and brunch with friends. Seeking loans to give treat and bunking classes to complete or rather copying assignments. Giving gyans which hardly any 1 cared of but still I was proud of.
I miss standing tall and addressing people My skills of being an orator and ramble on. Well missing things and people have made me confident and strong but missing me the real 1 has just the way of living life. Well for this current year have decided will travel and do things I love doing the most, will try and improve my photography skills and yes exploit the remaining unseen Delhi.
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Apotheosis contd.

Chapter 2
With every passing year at college the zeal of becoming an engineer became more determinant and resulted in a pseudo intellectual behavior, where I was capable enough to take decisions. 1st one the decision to live in a rented flat in spite of the hostel against my parents will, finally mom came to rescue of deserted son (tragic situation) and convinced dad in her melodramatic way. This was probably the 1st time I stood up against my dad so the ownership was entirely mine. Post all this plot let me tell you was this worth taking all this pain, Yes indeed as this year was the biggest learning experience which I would never forfeit. So now the inside scoop on my roommates literally we were a group of 7+3 people in 2 adjacent flats but were actually a group of BC’s who hardly cared for anyone and lived life our own way. 10 lousy person ready to rock. Planned outing every month and stepped outside the boundaries of PKD. Countryside has great esthetic beauty and aura, felt like sitting up close to nature out of which Gudguda being my favorite. Later discovered our organizing capabilities and planned numerous party at our flat and even had to manage our land lord he had delusion that we were the best lads he could see around. All thanx to Shantnu, Tara, Summit & Abhinav as they represented us all and covered up while we convicts were planning for another gig of ours. Saturday was the day when movie was screened at our place with expert critic and comic way and yes we did visit PKD talkies to watch telegu films with the hope that we would speak telegu some day but ended up imitating dear devil stunts in vain. With all these life time experience we did manage to study on the contrary discovered multi tasking and yes the “NON-STUDY ENGINEERS SYNDROM” started showing its effect. 2nd year did bring a moment which every engineer apprehend to be in “seniors” with new batch flooding in the college we officially became seniors, believe me every single student lives in fantasy of what it would be like being a senior but with an efficient principal and management in place it was a catastrophic end to our dreams. 2nd year brought numerous opportunities specially for me presentations, anchoring, organizing, Ashu and I teamed up for quiz competition and shared a great chemistry apart from few hick ups. Well this was the period were some people made an impact in my life our then principal, prajna mam, raghu bhai I value there presence and treasure what I learned from them. We at college anticipated for vacations and with sem break got an splendid opportunity to work on a project for mondialogo engineers award, with deadline inching nearer every day ultimately decided to participate. This was the decision would never regret in life entire credit goes to Dhananda sir as it provided an opportunity to meet 3 grandeur individuals master at there work Patrick, Harshil and Maren I have learned a lot and resulted in an endless story. I was living life king size was working hard and partying even harder.
Mid march was scheduled for disaster mitigation a national level symposium and I ended up presenting a paper there as well still remember a guest faculty who almost raged every single presenter but was left with no queries unanswered by us. Later that evening a cultural program was organized where I teamed up with leading lady for the 1st time still stimulate my thought. Well 2nd year was action pact and everything was falling in line for me.

Labyrinth

We as human being are never satisfy with what we poses rather we are provoked by other's possession and in this run we forget the sole content that satisfy our needs. Necessities that are not materialistic rather rejuvenate our soul and subconscious mind to perform at par. We are stuck in the Labyrinth of social responsibility and obligations.
For me visiting archeological heritage and spending some time alone relishing past glory helps a lot. I have been in Delhi from past 7+ months but hardly found any time to see the best of Delhi. Well on Saturday eventually decided to visit lal qila and jama masjid in spite of all the odds, yes the odds were pretty strong and with every minute under scorching heat was a blow on self-confidence. However once I saw the Tri colour held hing at lal qila the Indian inside me boosted my cells as if I were a satellite about to be established in my orbit. A sublime energy filled child inside me with the anxiety. Mughal Emperor Shahjahan, started construction of the massive fort in 1638 and work was completed in 1648. The Red Fort was originally referred to as "Qila-i-Mubarak" (the blessed fort), because it was the residence of the royal family, one can still be embraced by the royalty and the ambience of the place. Lal qila was built in lieu of the needs of the royal blood. The place was awesome as u might find some princess touring india. Lal qila has 2 museums with artifacts the speaks for rich history and is one of the integral part of golden period of Mughal rule.
Post lal qila my next target was jama masjid, The Masjid-i Jahān-Numā (the 'World-reflecting Mosque'), commonly known as the Jama Masjid of Delhi, is the principalmosque of Old Delhi in India. Commissioned by the Mughal Emperor Shah Jahan, builder of the Taj Mahal, and completed in the year 1656 AD, it is the largest and best-known mosque in India. Jama masjid was enormous enough and its architecture by far the best, when I reached jama masjid it was already past 1 in afternoon and the Red stone (primary building material of jama masjid) was hot enough to roast chapattis and you had to move without your shoes on was difficult but the vibes of the monument stimulated the zeal of witnessing something glorious. It was one of the best experiences as have been to many places in India but Delhi has vast archeological diversity to satisfy every eager and enthusiast person and your demands are met. I have uploaded some images that I took you can have a look and please embrace in with ur suggestions. Looking forward for ur posts.