Thursday, May 28, 2009

And still i love you

I don’t have everything
As a matter of fact I don’t have anything
Except a dream of a better day
And you will help me find my way
Being a man I am sure to make mistakes
But to keep you I would do all it takes
And if it meant my love was really true
I’d gladly die and watch over you
I wished you knew how much I cared
You’d see my love is true, By the life we’d share
Even if you changed your mind and say our love was not true
I’d want to die continuously cry and still I’d love you

Tuesday, May 12, 2009

miss u really

"ek shaqs raaste mein kahin choot gaya tha
us haadse ke baad, yeh dil toot gaya tha

woh shaqs jiske kaandhe pe sir rakhe mein soya
seene se lagke jiske kayi baar mein roya

ek din kisi baat pe jab woh rooth gaya tha
us haadse ke baad, yeh dil toot gaya tha"

A strange situation in my life this is about a person who was very close to my life showed me the correct path in fact and in short meant the whole world to me.I am just writing this with the hope that she goes through it even once.
My zeal of living life has changed is past few days the situation have altered my dimensions of seeing and perceiving things ,i am hurt but not enough to deviate from my path.
I guess the only way to give a tribute or the reward to the person is to chase my dream and come up to her expectations.
But the only thing that hurts me a lot is that my inner consciousness will never allow me to live with the fact that i have really hurt some1 important to me to live this life.

Friday, May 8, 2009


"Our deepest fear are not that we are inadequate our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond imagination.
It is our life not our darkness that most frightened us.
You playing small dose not serve the world there is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people wont feel insecure around you.
We were all meant to shine as children do.
It’s not just in some of us rather in every one.
And as we let our own light shine we unconsciously give other people to do the same as we are liberated form our own fear.
Our presence automatically liberates others."

Well I am stuck in between of some emotional and psychological imbalance, about only 10 days left in college and am surrounded with sense of loosing things.Yes i am that's for sure things that really mean a lot to me and will always be same.
The biggest fear is that the road ahead is full of challenges and difficulties and i will have to be the fittest to survive, survive all the odds.Hope this energy remains the same but i only need the support of my friends and family.

My Tribute

There was a big question ahead when I decided to write my first blog

What exactly be the contents of it. I was goofed up & was in a fix. The great vacuum surrounded me with uncertainty of either I would do some injustice or will not be able to correlate to the topic. I am neither a writer nor a poet this makes my task even difficult.

But one thing that makes me different form any of them is my conviction and my promise of being true. This isn’t a fiction rather and impact on my life which has a deep impression & will always be with me till I live.

So here I am about to write about some person in my life

To stat with I go in chronological order

1. My Almighty “mom”:

MA first word that a child learns, she is the first only or rather the only one to understand our pain and needs. For me she has always been more that mom, ma as she always knew my needs and helped me along difficult paths which I was afraid of .She has always cried when I was sick. When she tells me about the day when I was 1 and was suffering from pneumonia and was about to give up she ran a at nanny’s place to get a doc.

She has gone through a lot of pain to get me here rite through childhood. For our education she has dedicated her life.

Have learned a lot from her patience, perfection, passion, perception have seen this world with her eyes. Her presence in this world enough has changed my existence in this world.

I would do anything to fulfill her dreams and make her proud of having a son like me.

2. My Dad:

The second most important person in my life who had a great everlasting impact on me is my dad. For some dad is an ATM a means of resource or a reason of there existence but for me paa is more that anything in this world. We both dad and son connect in a different way we play cards crack jokes and even talk about girls at school. Its told a man learn from his mistakes and my dad had done all to teach from his mistakes and his experience so that I really have a very good time around. Papa have been helping me being a man before age and made me responsible enough to take decisions. For me he is my strength, my vision and above all my world. Thanx dad for being around .

3. My Sis:

My younger sister is the best gift god ever gave me. She is adorable and jack of all trades. For me my sis is responsibility and a vision of her bright future. Its the best experience that I get when she turn towards me for help, suggestion and courage when she is in trouble. She understands me the best and has always come up to my expectation.

She have made my life challenging and difficult as she consider me to be her ideal which is really on a difficult position to be. I just pray to god to grant me with the strength to come up to her expectations.

4. A Friend:

I am really confused about what to write about her. I was introduced to her about 4 years ago in the college. She has a great aura around her and she made the surrounding lively with her presence. Initially we were friends and then gradually knew she was the best. She was with the purest heart among the persons I have ever known since school and she tops the list. The best thing about her is that she is never afraid of anything and she is independent. For me she was the best thing that has happened to me the college. She was always there by my side to help me out. I know will miss her but her golden words and advice will always be with me to guide me through.

She is venerable the most precious thing after my family. I make a promise my MENTOR will never let you down at any phase of life. I know I cant ask for more because your presence around me and your care are priceless and matter the most to me.The days spent with you in college will always remain as a mentor and my respect for you will always be same all through my life ever and ever.

At the end of this blog I thank all of them for being four mighty pillars of my life and thanx for guiding me through, may god grant me with energy and patience to fulfill all your dreams.