Yaarian..........................

Friendship isn’t how u 4gt but how u forgive, not how u listen but how u understand, not what u see but how u feel,& not how u let go but how u hold on. When it comes about expressing feeling there are only few things that can compel me to blog, the memoir has to be axiomatic and evident enough so that the urge to pen it down increases. Friends Post family it is probably the most important relation we human tend to develop and live along, it’s this small social group or individual those affect our life largely. I have always been keen with friends and friendships I don’t believe in a large group of friends. Some might consider me being an introvert but this is who I am. Friends are buggers who make our life living hell & have the ability to drag us out of melancholy. They are people who accept you the way u are and delve to bring us out of delusion. This post of mine is just a tribute to all these people in my life and has acted like a vortex. Every 1 of you have made my stay special in Delhi kudos to each 1 of you my friends. November 2K9 I landed in Delhi all by my own thus my struggle for survival officially began the only thing that was tantalising was friends filling in. Slowly and gradually people stepped in some old and some new. A month later “The Ritu Raj” joined in and not to forget Ashutosh was already there the list might be small but each and every 1 on this is largely important for who I am be it good bad or ugly. With Ashutosh have had some exceptional food hunts and photo sessions and not to forget numerous movies we watched together. Had some wonderful time cooking watching movies and travelling with ritu, ullas bhai and devashish. Ritu contribution in my life cannot be summarised with words rather it requires a hell lot of swear words to describe him. With my small stint at wipro the only good thing or rather best thing out was 4 exceptional people there were resurrect and had the entire panacea in this world. Arijit, komal, Pritam and Tenvir(folks the order of your name is alphabetically so plz don’t take it otherwise). Arijit is probably the most mature and understanding among them all a brave and yes the smartest of them all. Komal a great friend and I probably share the small town dream like hers Pritam the most witty and he has always got numerous ways of bragging and tearing every 1 apart Tenvir the so called and self proclaimed cutie and yes he does date women’s LOL, but simplest of them all. I had some great friends at college and Post College the I have been in constant touch with have only deepened our friendship folks junaid,Tara,Sumit ,Adi & HOD i miss you company. A friend whom I always be grateful for doing something that was irreversible and yes it meant a lot to me wouldn’t name you but I know U understand and I will forever grateful for that. And lastly a friend for forgiving me I understand you don’t have time to read this but you have always been special to me. On this friendship day i take this as an opportunity and thanx each and every 1 of you thank you for being there.

Veselka.............

Veselka is a Ukrainian word for rainbows, I am clueless about what made me choose this word but ever since I came across it has fascinated me.

When I contemplate on my life, I feel something is missing for sure, the genesis of being complete. I have surely achieved things on my personal and professional front but when you have miles to travel who cares about pity yards so life yelps of excitement and enthusiasm. Past 6 months were dismal profane and completely lacked gusto. I sat for an exam which I have been dreaming of since childhood and put the lone opportunity to rest. Post the 1^st quarter has been in a state of limbo and complete tranquillity. There have been instance of happiness but were ephemeral and its not the instalments of joy and happiness one desire of rather we seek abundance. At occasions it seems life has lost its spark and is vandalising the prevailing excitement. I just hope that I will be able to pull it off like VESELKA to rise and shine. I would rather delve and intricate the prevailing opportunities.

Just when the things are not right I feel alienated and stifle in order to relive in trance to flabbergast at the end, Remembering......"THERE ARE FAR, FAR BETTER THINGS AHEAD THAN ANY WE LEAVE BEHIND..."

Happily Ever After

This blog of mine is fairly important it would be cynical of me if I fail to express my feeling in this particular case. Its about relationship its about family and above all its about the important people in my life.
As a 3 year old kid when we start realizing & co relating things changing around him is suddenly amazed with invent of a sibling the new kid in house is initially a toy and later becomes a threat as the older kid senses of loosing importance,but this particular dark phase don't last long. I have had some of the best time of my life with my family specially with my lil sis. There have been instance were we fought like it was the end. Gradually we realize its the sibling is what made me complete. There were instances were my sis and I use to compare who was loved the most, we took sides of parents. We bullied each other on results you name it and we fought for probably every possible thing.Gradually we matured from fights to fun from aggression to being frolic. We studied together partied watched movies and played like every other kid. We had witness some tough times together and few immaculate and pristine moments of life with our parents. I have always believed my sis is a stronger person than me as she was always with mom to lend a hand and in-spite of all the odds her miraculous fate helped her defy all the obstacles, I believe had she been resourced well she could have excelled even more. With time our understanding grew we became more of a friends and she is a prized possession i have.
When i left for college and my 1st vacations were beyond description. I remember the sparkle in her eyes when i gifted her from my 1st salary. I still make a point to buy the best for her and I know she deserves better than the best. When she is about to enter into a new phase of life am happy for the Binay and so for her they make a happy couple. All i wish is she gets what she wants
she has more or less been like a daughter to me more than a sis coz i can never see her cry. I can't really figure out what would be my reaction at her Bidai but the future is not glimmer is bright as a sun and the wonder couple will be merrier.
I know I would miss my sis miss those opportunity shopping for her remembering her likes and dislikes(Binay she a complete list of all those)
My best wishes to Swati & Binay specially Binay you have a tough road ahead LOL

RAJDHANI 22823

6th December my brother and I were traveling back from our cousin's wedding we were exhausted and above all were traumatized and besieged due to last moment ticket confirmation. Like an idealist we reached station prior to the departure and took refuge at semi deserted Bokaro Railway station.Apart of all other uncertainty one thing certain from our past travel experience the jinx would continue of our travel companions were going to be reserved conservative and non cooperative(who cooperates with two 26 year old brats).
finally the train halted and we boarded it with low spirit and occupied our respective seats.The corresponding 6 seats were occupied at the same station and the surprise was quite pleasant.All of us were around the same age group 25-30 and zila ghaziabad was the youngest in 20's. In fact she was the 1 who started the conversation inquiring about the lower birth. NIshant(major sahab) was the game changer he was the 1 who made frequent communication and interacted to the fullest thought I wasn't behind when u talk about movies novels and yes food for sure. Bhaskar bhai and I share same hometown so it instantaneously clicked with him. Shweta was the sophisticated 1 was her presence of mind made an impact, My brother vivek is shy lad but his words of wisdom were intriguing. shivangi was gud and pretty informative and what made her stand uniquely from rest of us was that she was the only vegetarian. Bhaskar bhai the spark of confidence which came with the experience he had. The entire group came into genesis and we were an assortment of a kind.
Within 1st hour of journey none was left unknown least bothered with whose seat was where. We yelped and played pranks on each other indeed and in fact had a gala time traveling. All 6 of us unique in our own ways made us complete as group and whenever it felt as we things froze Nishant stepped in and lit the scene.
We talked a lo from relevant to irrelevant things.
It was an absolute pristine experience filled with tranquility and ease, cant find a better time to write this as its been 2 months and the group is till in touch have met twice and planning for future endeavors.
Folks it was an absolute pleasure traveling with you guys it was an utopia and am sure it would never be matched with such an tantalizing journey again.
sorry if i miss some of your qualities as you guys had galore of them.

Empty: In Silence and Solitude

2nd half of the year has not been of much help; too add to my woes random changing shifts did the trick. With our comparatively busy lives our life seems to be tumultuous filled with boring and we tend to live life in a trance. We tend to start confusing breathing with living. We tend to feel that our life is all because the catastrophe in the world rather it’s the fast paced life and the hectic routine that is taking the toll.
The only revelation when I sit alone in solitude is who I am becoming is far more important than what I own. Sudden in the wake of existence we have to give up and shed who we were.
Such a sudden translation leaves us scrambled and we tend to get lost in the mist.I rather seem to enjoy this state of emptiness the best was i had ample time to render on existence itself.
The better effect was that I was more jovial when met friends and started enjoying life in bits and pieces, took photography as a pastime and loved it.
last 6 months were a roller coaster as enjoying weekends with pals was pretty frequent and all thanx to amigos RITU RAJ & ULLAS there company is a fun ride .
plus I traveled as well and I know the priorities were sidelined but it was worth trying.